Since Nov 1, 2008 Jason has had our costumes for this year picked out. We are Anakin Skywalker, Padme Amidala, Luke, and Leia Skywalker. 
Luke and Leia are twins. Luke has blonde hair blue eyes like Jax. Leia has brown hair brown eyes like Joss. Padme and Anakin are their parents. Pretty perfect!  Technically Padme died during childbirth, and Anakin turned into Darth Vader,  but whatever. We decided to make them one happy family!

For 2 days Joss has been saying "Where's Matt?" all day. I go to get her up from her nap "Matt?!" "Nope, it's just me." Yesterday she kept saying his name and pointing to this tiny picture I have of me and my brothers saying "MATT!!!" So I called him and told him how much she missed him. He was nice enough to stop by on his way home from working in Park City. Both kids were SO excited to see him. Joss has always loved Matt. Jaxon kept saying "Wheres Jaysh" (Jase) It is cute how he knows who goes together.
So here is a picture of Uncle Matt holding his favorite niece last night.

Yesterday I laid the kids down for their nap, Joss fell right to sleep but I could hear Jax in there talking to himself. After about 30 min I noticed the lullaby CD I had turned on for their nap was skipping. It was a really annoying skip so I figured that is probably why Jax hadn't settled down yet. I knew if I walked in there he would freak out and want me to get him out of his crib.
I tip toed in their room and he immediately popped up.  He put his finger up to his lips and said "Shhhh Mama, Lala's night night!" I whispered "Ok, buddy I'll be quiet." I turned off the CD player and said "Jaxon, lay down." He plopped his head down on the pillow. I said "night night," and he said "night night mama." I walked out, closed the door and didn't hear another peep for 2 hours.
I still cannot believe he said that entire sentence to me. He puts 3 or 4 words together here and there. But to tell me to be quiet to not wake up Lala, and then promptly lay down and fall asleep? So not like him. I was trying not to laugh, I thought it was so cute!
He has been such a sweetie pie lately. I love him.

Except for last night. Joss wouldn't drink anything all day again. Wouldn't take any medicine. Her throat hurt and she was feeling miserable, and since giving her medicine is a two man job, there was nothing I could really do for her. Jaxon was acting out and by about 4:30 pm both kids were SCREAMING. Pushing eachother out of my arms, hitting eachother, and just full on screaming. I thought I would lose my mind. I called Jason and said. "I.Am.Done.Being.A.Mother.Today." He was like "aaahhh oooooK, I will hurry home."
As soon as the garage door opens, both kids are happily laughing and playing nicely, and Josselyn slurps down her chocolate milk with medicine hidden in it that I had been trying to get her to take for 7 hours. Just slurps it down like it was nothing. Whatever! I grabbed my purse and headed to the grocery store. I have been on lockdown in this house with Joss not feeling good for a week. A trip to the grocery store by myself is just what I needed.
Both kids were fed dinner, dressed in jammies and happily playing on the floor with Dad by the time I got home. What would I do without Jason!

Twins is for sissy's. Joss can handle quads.

Last night we made Halloween cupcakes.

Yesterday Joss would not drink a thing. I changed her diaper when she first woke up, and then not again until 5pm. Both were pretty much dry. We bought her a slurpy, she wouldn't touch it. Didn't want a popscicle, or ice cream. She ate a little bit of food here and there but was lethargic and pale all day. We were on the phone with the surgeon and our pediatrician about whether or not she needed IV fluids at the ER. She had a wet mouth and tears and those are the best way to tell if a kid is dehydrated or not so we decided against it and kept trying to get her to drink. She ended up having about 6 oz of milk by the end of the day.
We were still having no luck getting her to take her antibiotic or pain medicine. A friend told us how to stick our finger back where her molars haven't grown in yet and press on her tongue as we squirt the medicine down her throat. That worked. She of course gagged and hated it. But when she wouldn't drink anything we really had no choice.
She slept 14 hours last night 7:30pm-9:45am. Her color has pinked up and she is eating and drinking again today. Still moping around and wanting to lay around and cuddle, but acting more like herself.
Friday night Grandma Ninny came to watch the babies so Jason and I could go to a Halloween party with Matt, Jenny, Mitch his girlfriend Carly, Zak, his girlfriend Liza, and Ceason. We left after the babies went to bed and were only gone for 2 hours. When we got home, both babies were awake and hyper. Grandma said Joss was crying really hard and woke up Jaxon, so she had to go get them and try to calm them down. Poor Joss, must have not been feeling good!  We kept trying to get them back in bed, but Joss would start screaming. I am trying to avoid anything that makes her scream this week so we decided to let them burn some energy. They ran around the kitchen island like wild indians.  We read to them and finally they settled down and fell asleep about 2am. I found some suspicious wet drooled on candy corn in my bed... Grandma, you didn't give the kids sugar at 9pm when they woke up did you? Busted! :)
Well, It was nice to get out of the house for a fun night! Joss is doing better today, and I hope it is all uphill from here!

Aunt Cece is a make up artist, and brought over her make up today so she can do my make-up for a Halloween party we are going to tonight. She put a little on Joss, and Joss loved it. Jaxon had fun applying face powder to Ceason, Joss, and I... and maybe a little on himself (don't tell dad.)

They wanted to lay in mommies bed yesterday to watch a movie.

This whole week with Joss not feeling good I haven't been able to set her down. She just cries and hangs on my legs. The only time I am not holding her, is if she is in her high chair eating, or in her crib sleeping. Jaxon has been getting jealous, and when he tries to climb on my lap she gets very territorial and pushes him off my lap. Yesterday she was sitting on the edge of the couch and fell off and hit her head on the tile. Jaxon got jealous of me comforting her and ran and hit his head on the tile then fake cried and climbed on my lap too.
That is the hardest part of having twins for me. Being able to give both kids your full attention. I try SO HARD to be even and fair, but sometimes one of them needs me more at the moment than the other. I try to pay really close attention to Jaxon when he acts out. I know he is doing it just to get attention whether it be negative or positive.
He does realize Joss isn't feeling well and has been super sweet with her.
I really hope next week our house is back to normal and we can get back to our regular routine.
On a VERY happy note Joss slept the entire night for first time in her LIFE!!! I can definitely get used to this!

Joss got a dose of Versed which is an amnesiac (makes her forget) and it also makes her feel relaxed and loopy so she isn't nervous. (I wish they would have given Jason and I some!)  She played with toys in the waiting room until it was time for us to wheel her in her little wagon to the surgery doors. She was fine when we hugged and kissed her goodbye, then as soon as she went through the doors we could hear her start to cry. Broke.Our.Freakin'.Hearts!
We were told the surgery is 30-40 min so we ran to the cafeteria to get some lunch and bring it up to the parents waiting lounge.  After about 40 min the surgeon came in and said "Her tonsils were HUGE, and her adenoids were just as big!" He said the surgery went well and they will come get us in 10-15 min. 40 min went by before the anesthesiologist finally came in to tell us, as she was waking up, she had a "throat spasm" and de-sated. They had to slip a little oral airway in her windpipe to help her breathe. The anesthesiologist was able to pull her out of her de-sat very quickly but wanted to keep an eye on her for awhile longer before getting us. Another 15 min went by before they let me go in and see her. There was only room for 1 of us at her bedside before moving us to her recovery room.
When I walked back in there, I could hear Joss screaming "Mama" "Ouch" "Mama" in a horrible raspy hoarse voice. A nurse was holding her in a rocking chair and Joss was freaking out.  I scooped her up and rocked her saying "it's ok, it's ok mama is here." She was pulling on her IV and spazing out. It was horrible. As soon as she saw it was me she fell asleep. Wow. That was the saddest thing I have ever seen in my life. It was all I could do not to cry, but I tried to talk in a happy voice to calm her. They warned me that coming out of anesthesia makes you delirious and wild, It still didn't prepare me.
I carried her into recovery and they finally let Jason come in. Every time the blood pressure cuff would start squeezing, or she would wake up, she would cry. I finally got her comfortable sleeping on my chest. Only problem was I was NOT comfortable. The chair was horrible. I didn't dare move. I didn't want to wake her. Every time I would try to get comfortable she would wake up. So there I sat, for 6 hours, holding her. I seriously jacked my back up. Yesterday I could barely move it hurt so bad.
All along they told us we were spending the night there. I was really surprised when the dr came in and said we could go home that night as long as we were comfortable giving her her medicine, and as long as she kept her Oxygen up.  She had been de-sating  as she would fall into a deep sleep so we had to keep a blow by oxygen mask  on her as she slept. A routine we were all too familiar with given her NICU stay, and she also came home from the NICU on blow by oxygen for 1 month.  We took the oxygen off of her and she only de-sated a few times, but pulled herself out of them really quick on her own, without needing O2.
Joss is horrible about taking medicine. Always has been. We tried mixing it in a slushy, in pudding, having everyone in the room have a "taste" first, making her say  "please" for it so she would think it was a treat, nothing worked. She knows it is medicine. The nurses showed us how to pin her arms down,  squirt it in the back of her throat, and plug her nose which forces her to swallow it to take a breath. It is horrible. I hate doing it. But what is even worse is not doing it, and having her be in pain, so torture it is!
They had a no visitors rule in the post op room, but Grammy was able to sneak in for a little bit and give Joss a dolly and some snuggles. She was already at the hospital visiting my niece who was on the floor above us. It was great having her stop by, so Jason and I could shovel dinner in our mouths as fast as we could.
Now that we are home, Joss has been doing great! She ate a ton of food yesterday. They say the first day is the easiest since she still has some residual anesthesia and morphine in her. I am not expecting the rest of the week to be so easy. She has had to be pinned down twice for the torture method for her medicine, and 2 other times she took it down no problem, I hope she figures out she is getting the medicine no matter what, so she might as well comply.
Jaxon missed Joss so much, Ninny said he kept saying "Where's La la? Where's La la?" all day. He has been SO CUTE with her. He must be able to tell that she is not feeling well because he has been hugging, and kissing and cuddling her non stop. It is the sweetest thing ever. (Joss on the other hand, didn't ask about Jaxon once while we were in the hospital.. hmmm.)  He has been enjoying the Joss Surgery diet as well and helping her eat all the popscicles, ice cream, pudding and jello he can get his hands on.
Here are some Joss surgery pictures:

This weekend we went to the Webster family cabin. It was Joss' final Hoorah until she is on her sore throat death bed for 2 weeks. We celebrated her last night with both of her tonsils by carving pumpkins, going on walks, and climbing up and down the stairs 50 times, cause that is just so fun.
Her surgery is tomorrow at 12:15pm. She can't have any food after midnight tonight, so we are going to wake her up at 11:30 tonight and give her a snack to help fill her up. She has dinner at 6:00, and goes to bed at 7:30. I think that is just too long to make a 2 yr old wait to eat.  She can have clear liquids in the morning until 9:15am, then nothing until after her surgery. We are going to feed Jaxon his breakfast in the basement so he doesn't taunt her. Wish us LUCK tomorrow!!!
Here are some pictures of our fun weekend.

Joss, singing and jabbering the whole way home.  She and Jaxon have this alien twin language. They communicate to eachother in this jibberish and totally understand what the other is saying. It's mind boggling to watch. They are so funny!

Last night we had Joss' pre surgery class. Our group was for 2, 3, and 4 yr olds. They had a really cute dolly dressed in a hospital gown and all the kids got to take turns taking her blood pressure and their own. They got to listen to their heart with a stethoscope. Put on a surgical cap, mask, heart monitor sticker, oxygen monitor on their toe. Joss got to smell all the flavors of the anesthesia gas and picked strawberry for her surgery. We brought kitty kitty along and Joss dressed him up with all of her surgery stuff. It was a really cute, informative class. I am really glad we went. It is meant to make the kids familiar with what will happen on surgery day so it isn't too foreign or scary. Jason sat in the parents meeting that explained what to expect on surgery day, and throughout recovery. The class instructer said anyone getting eye surgery or tonsils? We said, "yes, tonsils and adenoids".. She says "OOOOh, ya, tonsils are a bad one! Just be prepared! It is a 2 week recovery!"   Great! Well, at least she was honest. Everyone has told us that while kids this age are resilient, and she will forget this ever happened, it is a hard age during recovery. We can't tell her "this slushy will feel good on your throat," etc. She just wont understand. And wont want to drink anything because her throat will hurt.  I am really nervous.  I am also going to be totally paranoid about germs. I know she can get sick very easily after a surgery like this so I am making everyone get flu shots before coming over, and wear masks and hand sanitize like crazy while she recovers.
All in all, it was a really cute class and I look forward to Joss being able to sleep through the night finally, and swallow her food without choking. It will all be worth it!  Surgery is this next Monday Oct 19th.